I haven't been on here in a very long time but I need to know if I am the only mom like this or not. Lately I feel like I need to become "better"
I need to lose weight for my health, I am heavily obese. Along with that I have been battling with fierce depression and am trying to work my way through it. I am on medication but they don't help that much. I know that if I just started exercising it would help but I don't have the motivation or the support. One the hardest things for me right now is I no longer have a BFF. We all know how important our girlfriends are, I do have a few really good friends. The girl that I have been friends with for over 22 years wasn't there for me when my grandma died. I called her from the hospital since she had known her for most of her life. The next day happened to be my son's 2nd birthday so I asked her to come out... she said she couldn't because she didn't have gas money until the next day. Fine I called her again and she said she couldn't because her boyfriend had to work early in the morning and she needed to spend time with him. I told her plan on coming over after my son's birthday party two days later. That day came and she hardly talked to me and said she couldn't come over. So I told her I didn't want someone that wasn't there for me during the hard times to be around during the good times. My DF tries to listen but he doesn't relate. Anyways, like I said i'm try to get to the other side of the fog i've been in. I'm wanting to become more than just a mom because my son is 2.5 so in a few short years he will be going to school. I don't know where to start. I know i want to go back to community college but I really don't know in what.
Thanks for reading my rambling rant
on Jul. 1, 2013 at 12:32 AM