Ever since my mom got diagnosed with cancer, I have been worried avout having it myself. She recently passed away from it and I have this constant worry that I have cancer and I am dying. Is this normal? I have crappy state insurance so I cant get a primary doc, I would have to go to the ER and I am afraid they are going to find something and want to keep me and start treatment. I have pains right next to my heart, not my heart though, that scare me and I want to get checked out. I automatically think its a tumor and I am so afraid to find out for sure. My mom lived for almost 4 years after her diagnosis and treatment. She went through so much and I am so afraid to go through the same... her father also died from cancer, but he was 75, she was only 51.