Two Ectopics can I have a "normal" pregnancy? How do I stop hurting.
I am not sure how I found myself on here but it feels as if I don't have anyone to talk to or who can understand and relate to what I am going through. People say "I am so sorry, maybe next time", don't they understand that I don't feel better. I have gone through the sadness and now I am angry, I am angry at god and I know I shouldn't be but I am. I have two children from a previous marriage and I had done a tubal ligation in 2006 after I knew my marriage was doomed. I met the man of my dreams, my soulmate and true love months after my marriage broke up and I felt that I would make an amazing mother with him as the father; after extensive research I did the reanastamosis in 2008 (very expensive) I was made aware of my risk for an ectopic but I thought they all tell you there are risks, what are the chances.
I got pregnant in 2009 and was almost at the 4 month mark to meet my OB, it ruptured and I ended up in the emergency department- they saved my tube and claim to clean up the scar tissue, my report said my tubes were in remarkable condidtion. What does that mean?
I did not feel bothered so much. Recently, I was pregnant and again we knew I was high risk so I was doing weekly blood tests and was told we had to wait at the 7 week mark for an ultrasound, the day of my ultrasound I was 8 weeks and had already fallen in love and started planning for our new arrival. The lab told me we have good news an bad news, you are pregnant eight weeks with Cardiac Activity (heartbeat). However it is in the wrong place. I need you to go to the nearest emergency department and give them this report.
I choked my tears until I got into my car and then that was it. They managed to save my tubes again, and the surgeon was nice and said I have a 30% chance of recurrence but a 70% chance of a normal baby. I have cried every day since they killed my baby, I am in a daze when I drive to work, yes I came back on Monday after having surgery last Tues.
Can someone give me hope that they have had normal babies after two ectopics. PS> I am 37 yrs old so my clock is also ticking. My husband and I are usually very close but this time it feels that we have grown distant since our loss. Please help me to stop crying..