The holidays make me realize how alone I truly am. No friends, no family...nothing. I call my ex but of course all he says was he doesnt love me and to not call him...even though he has yet to file for divorce and knows I am miserable and depressed all day. I have always wanted love or a friend or anything; it just never happens. I'm not "worthy" my ex says but I'm the idiot who deserves it because he's all I ever think of...even when I did try to move on in the past. No matter how much he cheats, tells me im nothing, etc. I just want anyone in my life so I guess I never get over it. Meds,books, counseling, doctors and church is what I use to try to get over it; it just never works so I assume you really have to have help sometimes to get over it; when I wake up im alone and when I go to bed im alone so really it consumes my mind...I cant get normal jobs bc I never get it off my mind and am always crying over it or cant get out of bed because usually im just crying hysterically all day.I hate not being "normal" and able to block it out. I'm sure I Will if I meet someone else one day; but they wouldnt want someone like me who doesnt make a lot of money and who has an embarrassing car and lives with their parents. When he left; I was left with nothing and he locked us out of home I paid for...so I pray all day, everyday for the last 4 years for God to heal my heart, make me normal and make me get over it.Never works of course.
How did you get over your ex?