I found out last weekend that we (hubby and I) are expecting. Monday we had everything confirmed by the doctor and a blood test said I am anywhere from 4-6 weeks (at the time the blood test was done.) This would be our second child, our daughter turned 6 in October. Last summer I suffered a miscarriage at around 8-10 weeks, so of course we are slightly concerned about it happening a second time. The worst part is that I am experiencing things that I have never experienced before with the other two pregnancies and I am not sure if these are pregnancy or other-cause related. After my miscarriage last summer I was put on anti-anxiety medication and became fairly dependant on it to not have anxiety or panic attacks, it was a benzodiazapine that is a class-D medication. When we found out we were expecting, I stopped the medication because every resource said it very bad and not to be touched while pregnant, even when my doctor told me that SOMETIMES it is better to take the medication if it is NEEDED than to deal the issues of stopping it cold-turkey. I have had anxiety so horrible over the last week that it has felt more like 8 MONTHS of pregnancy instead of the actual 8 DAYS that we have known. I am VERY dizzy 24/7 (which I had before the pregnancy as a side-effect of the heart medication I take and have to continue taking through the pregnancy) everything I've read about stopping a benzo medication says that dizziness can be expected, but it is also common in pregnancy because of the blood, fluid, and hormone increases. I can't keep anything down, I am sick all the time which can either be pregnancy and hormone related, but also can come from the medication withdrawals and the panic/anxiety attacks I'm having all of the time. I can't think clearly, I feel like I'm in a 'fog', but I'm not sure if it is pregnancy related or not. I don't have an OBGYN yet because I wasn't far enough along to have my 1st appointment, although I DO have one lined up. My family doctor isn't a good resource right now, and even though going to the ER may seem like the best thing to do, I don't think so. It's so hard to know what is being caused from lack of a medication and what is being caused by increasing hormones, and the last thing I need right now are people sticking me with IV's, and making 'educated guesses' right now. They don't have a word for how I feel right now, 'terrified' doesn't seem to be good enough. My husband and mother are trying to comfort me and be here for me, but right now I can't find much comfort in anything. I know that not a lot of ladies have experienced this before, so there really isn't a whole lot of advice available to me, but any and all is welcome at this point. Thanks for reading.