First time momma to be and a first time step mom.
My husband has nine nieces and nephews, and that includes children from previous marriages. So we have a big family.
I joined this website because I find it difficult to talk to my husband or the one sister in law I usually talk to.
I suffer from anxiety and depression so lots of things are really rough on me right now. I'm just hoping to find some encouraging words and friends that know what I'm going through.
In more detail:
Lke I said, I'm a first time parent and although I've been around kids a lot, I fear my depression, anxiety and lack of patience on top of my pregnancy hormones and aches are really getting the best of me.
I don't feel up to the task of watching Xander and his mom has exhausted her options. Including daycare. (She's not really a good parent. And I don't just say that because I'm with her ex. Many people agree. She's 21, young and dumb and only concerned about herself.)
Now that we will be having him more and my husband is always working nights or at school, my mother in law is going through some health problems, and Xander's other grandma is busy with her own kids, I feel like it's all going to be pushed on me. Now I know what some people are thinking--I signed up for this marrying in to this family. Believe me, I know. But I also feel that I deserve time to relax and be stress free. Which seems inescapable in many aspects of our life. I'm terrified that my stress levels and chasing after a two year old will hurt my baby and myself. I've expressed this to Jon and his sister but no one seems to get it. They've all grown up around different kids and helped raise the younger ones. It's what they're used to. And I'm just not. I don't think it's fair and I'm not exactly sure what to do...
Does anyone know what I'm going through? :/