When I was in fifth grade I met one of my best friends (girl A). We were inseperable-we slept over each others houses almost every weekend, spent vacations together, told each other everything. I loved it. Even though I had 3 sisters, 2 older, one younger, this relationship with her was different. I could be myself without being judged or put down. When we were in sixth grade, another girl became close to us (girl B), than we all became pretty close. I thought our relationship was going to be one that you saw in the movies-best friends forever-all of that wonderfulness. Than we hit seven grade. Girl B started to turn girl A against me, telling her lies, saying things that didn't happen. Girl A started to believe her for some reason, and it got the the point were they both made fun of me. It truly hurt and at that point I gave up on making close friends. Throughout high school, I made sure to keep myself distant from everyone. Yes-I was one of the popular girls that people wanted to hang out with, date, be, ect. But, I never made any true friends. I had company whenever I needed it but I never gave into anyone because I was so scared of getting hurt again. That went all through college. Up until now, I've been so scared so I kept everyone at a distance. Now, looking at people it's like they all have this cclose group, going out together, going on shopping trips, and I am alone. Yes, I am in the best relationship with my husband, I love my kids to death, but I have no one to go out with to do girl time. My sisters are all single, no kids, and just in different places in their lives. I don't have any regrets, but today I was thinking I wish I had a shopping buddy. And it made me feel really sad and upset. During the day, I workout when my kids are sleeping (I am a stay at home mom) and doing a 3 hour workout is difficult when your by yourself. I wish I had a friend to come over to do it with me. It doesn't help that I am shy and have a difficult time understaning people and holding conversations because of a disorder. How can I make new friends who won't use me for my money or who I can completely trust? I just want a girl friend who will come over when we need to talk, go shopping, talk, just have girl time!!