Hi, I'm new here. I'm 30 and I have a daughter about to turn 10. I'm newly pregnant and I'm terrified that I've disembarked into the same situation I did with my first marriage. I have SOOO many red flags but I just can't bring myself to terminating this pregnancy even at the request of the people I hold dearest. I feel lost and I feel like I'm trying to be stronger than I have it in me to be. But I know that I can make it work it'll just take sacrifice. A bit of background is I'm married to my future child's father, an alcoholic, I go to Alanon meetings but I'm just so bitter. I chose this. This is my fault. This is a pain that echoed long before I was brought to this Earth. I'm the daughter of an Alcoholic who wasn't there and in a Freudian way I found two men who were alcoholic military men to make me feel that inward okay; the entire thing was subconscious. So now I'm trying to take care of little one and meet her needs. Please help. A sponsor, counseling, nothing is helping me deal. Please other mommies! Please empathize or at least tell me what things you have to say.
on Jul. 22, 2014 at 4:11 AM