My name is Rhiannon and this is my first post. I'm 20 years old with an 18 month old son. So I am a young mother, but I am far from stupid.
I left home at 16 and have been with my SO since 16 as well. I am in school to be a doula and childbirth educator ( maybe someday a midwife ) and I recently went back to work and started my son in daycare..Which brought the subject of vaccines back to my attention. Something in my gut had been telling me that it was wrong and that I was vaccinating just because I was told that I have to. That is odd for me because I consider myself a very anti-establishment kind of girl. Not to say I am against something just because the masses are for it but that I don't do things just because I am told to. I research. I don't know how I fell for it for an entire year.
The guilt of giving my baby boy so many injections weighs heavily on my shoulders.. ( all through 12 month shots ) He hasn't had a serious reaction that I know of, I just know I was wrong to do it.
I am very into natural parenting. I went with a midwife my entire pregnancy only to end up loosing my out of hospital water birth and having to be given cervadil at the hospital to start induction. Aside from that I did not use painkillers or drugs for labor or birth.. I breastfeed my son still to this day, albeit a dwindling supply. I always try to go the holistic route when healing and I DEFINITLEY do not trust the government and drug companies to dictate what is going into my or my son's body. It is scary the way I see things headed. An age where we are all forced to self-medicate witht their drugs..It really bothers me.
Now, I am kind of drifting.. I guess the meaning of this post is a vent of my frustrations. I have always been so independent and I am struggling with my convictions as a parent. Struggling with my convictions for the first time. I know what is right and yet the pressure is on.. Maybe that is because I literally just had a discussion with my son's ped. for the second time about vaccines today. The last time she told me to check "reputable" sources from her little list of government/pharma websites.. I figured okay? she wants to play hardball.. we'll play.
I went in today with the information from the FDA and CDC websites and vaccine package inserts stating ingredients/adverse reactions, etc.. Not to mention much more factual info from MANY other "reputable" sources.
She refused to hear it. Refused to acknowledge what is CLEARLY stated right in the pamphlet..FROM THE PEOPLE WHO MAKE THE VACCINES.
I guess this is how I feel.. Who are the real fear mongerers? The people working in a multi-billion dollar industry that they must maintain, or the parents, who are only advocates of their children? Parents with no "agenda"?
Sorry for such a long post.. Thanks for listening.