So, I decided at it was finally time to take my baby in for a well baby check up. She was born at home and only made one visit to a pediatrician for a newborn exam at 5 days old. That was over 4 months ago. I picked a doctor off our insurance website and took her today. Needless to say, I was very anxious about it. The doctor was very nice, but pressed me on the vaccine issue. She asked what concerns I had specifically, what ingrediants, what side effects, what risks and I was so flustered that I couldnt't respond. I don't do well under pressure. She was telling me how there are many immigrants here (I live an hour south of NYC) and how they bring diseases. She told me that she herself immigrated from Russia and how she almost died from measles when she was 25. She also told me that it has nothing to do with the immune system. I should have just told her we were postponing, so I could feel her out and prepare myself for the next visit. My husband told me I failed epically and he's right. I feel stupid. There's so much to research. I've done enough reading to know I'm not vaccinating, but I can't spout off facts just yet. What's the best way to go about this? Bring in studies? Have statistics ready to go off the top of my head? Also, she told me that I could start solids at 5mo, feed them before breastmilk, and wean the baby by 12mo. I'm not doing any of those things. I think I just need a shot of confidence to hold my ground. Your advice or encouragement would be awesome. Thank you.