Well, the last few days have been total doozies. Both good and bad. First with the good. I told my parents that I was pregnant. I was really nervous about it, because I know how much they would like to see me married before having more babies, but in the end, everything worked out fine.
I feel so much better, and it's nice knowing that at least I've got people in my corner.
Now to the not so good. Last night was terrible. I've decided not to tell the dad, for the simple reason that he's not stable. He's like a loose cannon and last night proved it. I told him that I couldn't do this any more...and that I didn't want to be with him. I tried to be as nice as I could about it, but that didn't really work so hot. The guy stormed over didn't even listen to me when I said that I didn't want him to come over. As it turned out, somehow or another he manged to get a set of my spare keys (apartment AND car). When I wouldn't let him into my apartment, he tried to force his way in. Luckily, when he said he was on his way over, I called the cops right away.
I can't put up with this any more!!! I know that I'm making the right decision in not telling him the truth. Last night, I was scared so badly that I was shaking. How could I have been so wrong about him? How could I have ever even let him into my life....our lives!? What's worse, is why in the world did I stay for so long?
He called this morning, telling me that he loved me and that he wanted to still be with me. "Can we work this out?" NO! I'm to my breaking point. I'm getting a garage at my apartment complex in the next few days. I had maintanence come change my locks last night. THIS is ridiculous.
What makes me really nervous, is that when I asked the officer last night what I could do, he said not much. I can file a civil no contact order, but what does that do? Does anyone know?
on Sep. 24, 2007 at 11:38 AM