I am done...I am through.
Last night I was over at Tyler's mom doing the normal crying over Tyler talking about him, plannning on the next things I was going to send him. Well she decides to give Hope a bath so I decided to snoop around on her yahoo messenger to find out what Tyler had told her because I wanted to know if she had any other info that I didn't know...well first thing I notice a girl named Christina under the "Tyler" section on the buddylist didn't think anything of it figured she had added a friend in the wrong section. So I go up into archives....wrong thinking...there was a conversation between Christina and his mom....it was like this:
mom: How are you doing sweetie
C: I'm doing ok I guess
M: You don't sound like it, what's wrong
C : I talked to Tyler, and I don't know he was just telling me too much stuff again....he just doesn't realize it upsets me.
M: what kind of stuff
C; Talking about what they are getting ready to start doing and ......
M: It's ok honey we will make it through this.
It went on and on and on. Now I looked at the buddylist again to see this girl's profile....there is a freaking pic of Tyler and her making out....Now tell me why did his mother not feel it was important to tell me this. Me not being close to her I coud understand it wasn't her place. But I go over there EVERY night and bawl my eyes out and tell her the prayer I pray every night that God would keep him safe, let him know I love him, miss him and am horribly worried about him, and to bring him back to me...she knows that I still love him and as I said the other day....she told me not to give up on him....from certain things he had said to her before he left....WTF.....she is getting an @ss chewing like she has never had handed to her today. I don't know who has hurt me worse her or Tyler. Because one- when you are in a relationship with someone for two years you just don't go out and find someone new like that ESPECIALLY when you tell the girl you have been with that you don't want them waiting for you for 15 months but let some hooker you don't know wait on you????? And for his mother to sit there and hold me while I cry and watch me go through all of this, assure me things will work out and we will be fine....for everything to be lies???
I guess in the end what I thought I had...in the end I never once had...I have wasted two years on him and his stupid family...been there through it all with them...only to get f'ed in the end. What do you all think?
I don't post here often....but I'm at wits end...I just need advice or even support really...thanks.