What Else Am I To Do?

[bellavita24]

 Well,

 

 it's been awhile since I have been on here let alone posted anything.1 month ago I applied for the FI program,and OJT, got a job through OJT,got free daycare and everything seemed like it was going okay.Well, I had to get this many hours to keep the job under OJT, wanted to keep the job, so I switched to night classes, so I got the job back, then yesterday the owner of the company yelled at all of us for not getting enough surveys in an hour done (( FYI tool you can't force an elderly person to do a fucking survey giving all their personal info)) so me and a couple girls walked out--QUIT.I cancelled my FI because I found out they take 40-60 percent of my child support,and with my DS dad about to pay child support soon, they would take ALL of what I have waited for 3 1/2 years for.
SO I cancelled my FI,and have 2 weeks left of full-time daycare since I cancelled my FI..At least I get to keep my Medicaid for the kids and I.
When I did all this? It seemed right and best decision, but now my grandmothers health is slowly getting worse and I need to keep them in some sort of pre-k program.They cannot just sit in the house all day, so I am going to try and find some low-income day care programs they can go to 21 hrs a week or something.In the meantime of my financial future, it looks grim and thinking about the twists and turns of it all? Makes me sick...My BFF Jen was in Army for 11 yrs,and you know what? It sounds like a pretty damn good idea minus the part of giving up my kids temporarily.I have yet to sift through the cons and pros of going in...BUT with that being said? It is stable! Best healthcare for the kids, you get paid while you're in basic,you have to be athletic (( I am)), mentally stable (( I am))...I have alot to think about, but IF I CANNOT pull my self out of not finding a job, or finding them low in come daycare, I will have to resort to this last option to give my babies some sort of stability.

[faerie75]

Im sorry this is so hard. Have you tried looking for a job w the remainder of time you have daycare? If you want to join the military, you have to clean your record.

[bellavita24]

 I am not sure If that offense is on my record or not, but If I have to debunk it and pay big bucks? I will do it...The military is the most credible,and stable career I can think of.I may not like the idea of it right now, but things might change. My dad was in SF for 30 yrs as a weapons instructor--
 Maybe I am not giving my self enough credit for what I can do,and maybe this will be the confidence booster I need to give myself credit for what I really am capable because right now? I feel like the shit scum on the bottom of my shoe.I feel like without this? I am not going to offer my kids anymore,and while giving them up will kill me it might be best for now but of course until I know what I REALLY need to do, I am not jumping into yet because it's such a huge process.

[LifeCafe42]

I'd get to looking for a job ASAP! Check out first 5 for pre k

[brieri]

 Good luck if your thinking of going into the military.

[Robsessed98]

I would look for a job while I still had daycare. If you are 100% certain about the military then do it, but its not something you do unless you have zero doubt.

[mantyangel]

My mother-in-law left her two kids with their dad after she divorced him to join the military because she didn't think she had any other options.  Her kids felt abandoned and never forgave her for it.  Just to wanted to warn you before you make a decision on this. Personally I just couldn't do it.

[bellavita24]

Thanks ladies for the advice, I will surely be taking it.I am hoping I can get a job, the kids have their day care for 2 weeks and then they're done.