Some days I feel so guilty. Why? I work full time from 8 to 5 Mon thru Fri. So I drop my son off at daycare around 7.30 and pick him up around 5.30. On Tues and Thurs, I go to school for three hours. Most of the time on those days, I don't see my son at all. School starts at 6.30 and ends at 9.30. I don't always have time to go home before running off to school.
By the time we get home on Mon, Weds, Fri, it is almost six. My son (he's 2) goes to bed anywhere from 7 to 8 depending on his day. Most of the time it is 7 or 7.30. So, I see him maybe an hour to an hour and half in the mornings and a hour to an hour and half in the evenings. He spends so much time with my mother because of the crazy schedule. She'll pick him up on Tues and Thurs for me.
I feel guilty because I have so many great ideas and things for him and I to do. We just run out of time. I get to see him for two blissful days on the weekends. But that's it. I am his only parent. He needs me. Lately, I have noticed how much he misses me. He is so needy lately and clings to me at random times. He will whine for me (which never happened before), run over to me, hug me tightly for a few moments then run off and play.
I know I have to work to provide for us. I know I have to go to school to further my career. I just wish I could be with my baby a little longer. I don't want to look at him and realize he's 15 all of a sudden. How do I stop the guilt? I am driving myself crazy