I'm going to be a single mom, obviously. My baby is due at the end of June. My ex and I broke up and I wound up having to get a two year restraining order against him, and he's already violated it, as well as the state possibly taking his parental rights away. Those aren't the things that I'm worried about. It's much better that me and him are not together, and it would be much better for the baby if he is not involved. I'm worried about the fact that I'm only 23. I haven't finished college yet, but I hope to. I moved back in with my parents so that they could help me. My mom doesn't want me to work right now, and where I'm at, legally nobody can hire you until after six weeks after you give birth. I feel incredibly guilty that my parents are having to help me pay for things. I also worry that my friends won't have anything to do with me because I do have a baby. I've already lost a friend because she was angry that I'm pregnant. Wasn't too much of a loss though. I also worry that I'll like never be able to date again. I'm not the kind of person who really goes out and parties and hangs out and stuff like that, so that isn't an issue. I just worry that any man or woman that I'm attracted to or attempt to pursue will be completely turned off or disgusted that I have a child. I feel like when I walk down the street, people are judging me and thinking I'm disgusting because I am only 23 and having a baby. It definitely was not the right time to have a baby. This baby was not planned, hell, by the time I found out that I was pregnant, I was six months along. I just worry that I won't be able to still be myself with a child. I'm creative, funny, and a genuinely unique person, and I worry that I'll change into a different person when I have my baby. I also have mental illness (depression, bipolar disorder, obsessive compulisive disorder, borderline personality disorder...) I had these issues long before I was pregnant. Becasue of my ex, I wasn't able to get any prenatal care until about a month ago. My GP had told me to stop taking my anti-depressant. And it has been really rough. Some days, I'll be really excited about having a baby, and then other days, I truly despise the idea of me having a baby. And I feel really guilty about the way that I feel. Does anybody else ever feel this way? My moods go up and down constantly. Are these legitimate things that others worry about, or am I just going completely crazy?