I really wish i had time to explain my crazy slightly screwed up life because it would all make much more sense. But I guess i just need to talk to people that don't have a basie opinion.
I am 15 weeks pregnant, unexpected but im happy. I have been with the guy for almost 4 years. BUT we haven't been dating. Cant because we work together (military). Or maybe that is the excuse i have believed because i wanted to. He has had 2 miscarriages with an ex many years ago and a miscarriage with me early in the year. So i expect him to be scared and what not. But he is SO emotional (not in a girly way) in a way that he is an Alpha male and dont realise that his petty drama really isnt anyone fault but his. he has been ok with the pregnancy, he has been asking for pics of my belly and how is it going (he's deployed). Well he messaged me last night and he was fine and happy. THEN like 5 hours later he messaged me saying "i wake up to this f*cking drama" (AKA an ex or his family asking family things) i said i was sorry i was here if he needed to talk. He bitched saying everyone was in his business and and blah blah. Everyone needed to fuck off and not to tell him " i miss him, love him or :x" i was like "wow ok, i didnt do anything dont take it out on me" THEN out of left field he decided to say "it is all your fault, you pregnant and it is ruining everything".................................................................................................WTF! i knew to keep my mouth shut and not bitch, but of course tears came (which is why i am at work with puffy eyes that look like i went rounds with Rocky) ONE its take two to tango. TWO im not stoping him from shit. he is going to Caribbean when he gets back, ok idc i didnt say anything. he is goin to vegas the weekend he is back, idc. what i wanted to say to him was
"GET OVER YOUR PETTY FUCKING DRAMA AND GROW UP YOU SPOILED LITTLE BRAT. STOP BLAMMING EVERYONE ELSE WHEN YOUR LIFE DONT GO PERFECT. IF YOU ARE TIRED OF SOME LIL GIRLS DRAMA FROM YEARS AGO, DROP HER. IF YOU HATE FAMILY ASKING YOU FOR MONEY ALL THE TIME, DONT ANSWER, OR TELL THEM NO, THEY ARE ADULTS."
i know he will calm down and say he is sorry and HONESTLY. i decided last night. I was done hoping and praying he would want me. I love and have enough respect for myself to not want this pain, and not want to be alone. All that matters now is me and this baby. A child i promise to every night that i will make sure they are happy and have all the love they will ever need.
Am i wrong?