My sons father is making my life a living hell by telling the courts what he wants and making it seem like that's what I want too. He's got them eating out of the palm of his hand. He's seen my son once, ever, and I haven't heard a thing from him since court. But I'm afraid now. After having NO say at the child support hearing, and getting more or less fked over, I don't know what he's capable of. He has them assuming we're splitting custody 50/50... but that's not the case. I spent all week looking for a lawyer but I can't get one to take the case, they keep just passing me off and it's so frustrating. I've been near tears wanting to scream all day. I don't know what to do, the mediation that shouldn't even be happening since there isn't shared custody is on Wednesday, and I'm freaking out. On top of all this my roommate is being a dick, staying out all night then taking it out on me cuz he's tired the next day. NOT MY FAULT! My car's still in the shop so I'm still a prisoner to his whims, we need groceries 3 days ago. He won't even check the mail, and he keeps the key on him. I've gotten behind on homework, I'm losing hours at work but because of how much I made last month plus my financial aid from school that is currently fixing my car, I make too much to get state legal aid. I know all I can do is push on and hang in there, but my resolve is cracking and that little shred of hope that everything will be great someday is fading fast. I truely, 100% honestly wish that I hadn't bothered with child support, and would give anything if I could make that man disappear. This is honestly a living hell. I will still hate him every day for the rest of my life for changing my sons last name to his. He just popped up and destroyed my family. I don't know what to do. I wish I had the answer.