I always thought when I had kids I would either be married first or would be soon after. I was with my ex for 2 years and for 3 years before that we were friends with benefits. He left me pregnant and with a 10 month old. I love my daughter to death but I hate that my ex isn't here to see how fast she is growing and watch her learn new things. I miss sharing her with him. He only gets her for 10 hours a week sometimes. I miss having someone to wake up beside and kiss goodbye and just be with. I realized he isn't the man I could ever see settling down with because he doesn't want to grow up. I want to be married and share this experience with him. Never going to happen but that's what I want. Do I try to date while I am pregnant? I don't want my daughter to see me with another man at this point. But I am lonely. I lost alot of friends when I started dating my ex. And every guy friend I had my ex scared away. I just want to go on a date.