Ive been with my boyfriend for 3 years now, we have a son who is 2 1/2 and im currently 20 weeks pregnant with my second child. He is often times moody and angry. He is a good man works hard but i dont think we are in love anymore. I got pregnant in highschool and dropped out, i have no licence yet. I also have no job, he works and we make enough to get by so i can be a stay at home mom. We argue often and he cheated on me right after my son was born back in 2010. Nothing has been the same since, i just dont feel emotinally attached to him anymore. If it were not for my son i would of left a long time ago i believe. Im not happy. My family was a split home growing up and i never seen my father after my mom left him. I have been dealing with an overwhelming sence of guilt for doing the same to my family that i had done to me as a child. I remember how much i wished my family was like the others. It breaks my heart to even think about leaving and raising 2 children on my own. Sharing holidays and birthdays i start to tear up just thinking about it. I just dont know what to do. I feel like im trapt becuase of my circustances. No job no education no licence how does one survieve with 2 children alone? I live in nys are there any programs to help people in my situation?
Thanks so much for reading and any advice of story you have to share<3