I really don't know what to make of it anymore. I think I've tried & continue trying to make our lives better but nothing seems to work. My son has been in therapy since he was 6 years old & nothing has changed. There's been only short periods of time where I have saw improvements in his behavior but he has 101 excuses why he does what he does. He has never wanted to take responsibilty what he has done.
When I left his father, had to go back to mom which completely broke me in two because I left her house at 16. Going back with a child wasn't easy for me. I really didn't want to subject my son to her because she's vert verbally abusive. One of the reasons I left at a young age. There was alot of tension in that house with my mother & she would say & do things to get riled up & infront of my son. So I know the constant bickering had some affects on him & not having his dad around. Those facts have taking atoll on him. He grew up very angry & now facing depression. His therapist wants to evaluate him for meds because nothing has worked. I told her I would think about it.
I'm to the point that I don't want to do it anymore but I keep going because I'm the only one he has that hasn't left. I love my son with all my heart & I feel extremely guilty for feeling this way. I wish I didn't but I'm one person with to much on her plate for so long.
Thank you for listening....