My bf's baby mom is deceased and I feel like I'm competing with her
I know this may sound crazy, but my bf's baby momma past away 3 years ago and I feel liek i'm competing with her. Everytime we talk about her, I can handle the conversation, then I have to drop it because i can feel myself getting jealous of their previous relationship. He tells me about how she loved him and how her family was to him, and after awhile I don't wanna hear anymore. I told him I felt like I am a reincarnation of her because a lot of things that I do reminds him of her and he said maybe but you're you and she was her. He's good to me and my son and he loves his daughter very much. I know that he misses her, but he don't say it cuz of my feelings. Am i being selfish or am i feeling this way for a reason? A part of me wants to tell him, then a part of me wants to walk away. I haven't told him yet cuz i'm nervous of his response.