Hi ladies. I really need someone to just express everything that am feeling right now. Because I feel that my life it's upside down. I am a mother of a beautiful 4 year old girl, I love my daughter with all my heart. I was born and raised In NYC but moved to Massachusetts at the age of 17. I got pregnant over there and had my baby girl at 18. Long story short. In Massachusetts my life sucks. I used to live with baby daddy but we had so many problems that I moved back to my mothers house and ever since I been there. I love my mom she is a very great woman but lately she wants to control my life like if I was a little girl and I really dislike that. I did a course of medical office and my plans were to just be independent. Am in NYC right now, and so far it has been so hard for me to find a job in the field that I want. I want to provide my daughter with a stable home, and sadly I haven't. Am just so depressed, and I feel like giving up and just go back to Massachusetts. (Although I don't want to). My plan was to be here in NYC get a job and look for an apartment for me and my daughter. Sadly it has been so hard for me. I just feel lost I have no one to talk to. Right now am staying at my dads house in NYC, & my mom (who lives in Massachusetts) is always pressuring me. She tells me I can't wait to u move by yourself, get a boyfriend and tell him to move u. I hate that fact that she tells me to get a man just to move me into a house. Am lost confused so depressed. I have so many goals in life that I want to pursue,but I feel like in order for me to pursue them I need to stabilize my daughter and I.
on Oct. 7, 2012 at 1:51 PM