Im so very lonely. My son's father left when I was six months pregnant and it has been so very very hard living without him. We were going to get married then he just left me. I try to get him involved in his son's life but he just doesnt seem like he want to be involved with him or me. I try to talk to him but he always says he has to go and never calls me back. It hurts so much because I still love him. Today I saw a pic of him on facebook and I just broke down and cried. I haven't looked at a picture of him for months because it makes me miss him too much and I have been trying to get over him. I really wanted to marry him and have a family together and it just rips out my heart that I can never have that with him now. And now lately Ive been feeling like I will never get over him and find someone else and even I feel like I dont want to find someone else either. Im just so hurt, sad, angry and heartbroken that I dont think I will ever find another guy. And part of me feels like why find another guy when he will just break your heart and leave you. I try to tell myself its just the pain talking but that feeling is just so strong. I feel like I will just live the rest of my life alone and never again be happy. My son's father was just such an important part of my life and I had made my life about making a life with him that now I don't know what to do with myself. Ive tried going back to college but I just dont care enough about anything anymore to even really try. I just wish he would come back and love us. I know I would be a good wife. I know that is foolish, he left me because he didnt really care about me and I shouldn't still want him but I can't help it. I feel like such a loser. I just wish I could wake up and be happy again.