I really hate to admit this but im so over come with stress i want to scream(ok i do yell alot). I just hate waking up if i even get sleep, i feel like once i step foot on to my floor its a bad day. I think i have the baby blues, my son was just born on the 28th of September. I hear him cry and i dont feel like figuring out whats wrong but i do because i just want him to be quite and go to sleep. I really feel like he is messing up my relationship with my 17month old dd. She is my world and love doing one on one with her but since i had him he takes so much work i dont have the extra time for her :'( Also he dont sleep at night he is always wanting my boob for comfort. I still havent bonded with him and people in my family are noticing. When my sisters try handing him to me after they hold him i dont want him, i rather him lay in his playpen till i have to feed or change him. Only time i even find it cute to hold him is when dd wants to love on him. Ugh i probably need to call my doctor and see if i can get back on some antidepressants but the last ones made me gain 25pounds and i have 40pounds to lose from having him. Sorry i know i sound selfish and i just need to suck it up but i really needed to get this off my chest. Ok my pitty party is over.
on Oct. 14, 2012 at 3:46 AM