I have no friends that are my age with children so I really have no one to talk to about my life because they wouldn't understand. I try not to complain and I can honestly say i'm a good mom compared to a lot of girls I know of. I try to stay positive. I'm in school and job searching. I don't want to mention that i've been on four interviews and still jobless. I don't know what's wrong with me. My baby's father makes me just want to cry. I feel like I have to beg him to do something for our daughter and I only ask of him when I am truly in need. He literally lives two minutes away and comes to visit her once or twice a month. Its all just sad. I'm so tired of repeating myself to him telling him to be a better father. I'm so tired of him lying to me and the world. He's always mentioning our daughter on his facebook saying how he loves her and does everything for her but in reality, he is a deadbeat. I don't know why he puts on a facade. I can't understand it. I'm completely not okay with the way things are but its nothing I can do to change them. The most logical thing I can come up with is cut off all contact and move on. It hurts me that he would risk losing her and me but maybe this is what he wants..
on Oct. 24, 2012 at 8:31 PM