I couldn't edit the original post. I think maybe it was too long. I talked to him tonight. I told him all the reasons it's not healthy or safe for me to be with him. I explained how I don't want my son to think this is how you treat women. We both cried a lot. I'm still crying. He agreed its not best. A lot of me demanding to know the how's and whys and him not having answers. It's really f**king sad. I know at the bottom of all this there was a lot of love, but it's just not ok.
Thank you everyone for reinforcing what I already knew, but was too chicken to do. I wish he would have hit me. It's so much easier to remind yourself how toxic it is when there's a black eye. This....this silent pain just kills. Wish me strength.
on Nov. 25, 2012 at 6:26 AM