My relationship with his father was horrible. It took me 3 years to leave him finally. My son was 2 at the time. I got pregnant at 19. I was working a full time server job and enjoying that I could spend my money on myself.. anything I wanted. I had nice clothes, a nice car i took good care of.. I went out when I wanted. Partied. Had friends. Had HOBBIES.. writing, drawing, playing computer games.. Was planning on going to school someday for something that I enjoyed that would make me no money at all lol.
His father was a rebound.. the first time we had sex I got pregnant through a condom because it broke and he didnt care to stop. When I was ready to break things off, I found out I was pregnant and stayed with him. Through horrible mental abuse and mind games.. I stayed with him. Until I was done and told him to leave.
My son is 4, going to be 5 on the 16th. Things are horrible with him. Everything is about daddy. He is sick today so I went to pick him up and he cried when he saw me and said he wanted me to go away so he could stay with daddy.
I am solely responsible for him. I pay for his clothes. I keep a roof over his head. I feed him, bath him, pay for everything.. I work full time. I get no child support. I recently had to quit school because my parents kicked us out and I couldnt afford to continue going because I'm the only one paying bills. I dont even get to call in to work when I'm sick. I work and stress myself to the bone trying to make everything work for my children. My bank accounts in the negative. My parents have to buy my kids their christmas gifts. Had to give us a tree.
His father has no responsiblity.. only sees him when he wants to. I cant work two jobs because he refuses to watch him when he isnt at daycare. He will see him MAYBE once a week. Sometimes goes weeks without seeing him at all. He goes out with friends, parties, works as much as he wants, any hours he wants to.. he gave up nothing when I had my son. Not one thing.
My child wants nothing to do with me. Nothing. I gave up my entire life.. I turned it all into trash for him. Nothing about my life is enjoyable. I work and stress about paying bills and getting him the things he needs. I stress about his behavior, how to make him a good person. I have no free time. I dont get nights out. I literally gave up everything for him. I dont think I have a piece of clothing that cost more than 50 cents. I spend my days off running errands and in low income programs to make sure I can feed him and clothe him..
Anyone else in a situation where you gave up your entire life for a child who doesnt even like you? I'm so hurt and upset right now.