From my posts in the past, you might know that my ex and I get along fine most of the time. We're divorced but the marriage should have ended two years ago. Every so often, you might even be able to call us friends.
But I am absolutely SEETHING inside.
I wish I could just rip into him about all the things I am angry about. Hell, I still might, 15 years from now when our kids are grown. I am careful not to make him mad at me because he takes it out on the kids by not seeing them and says "I don't want to be around you" as an excuse.
So many things from the past 12 years I am still so angry about. I am angry at him, and I am angry at myself for letting it go on so long.
I even sort of wish he'd try to get me back again so I can list all the reasons why he's a shitty human being.
I can almost come close to saying I hate him. It's a hate that runs deep, the kind of hate that can only come from loving some one.
I am having a really bad night.