So for almost 3yrs not I've been a SAHM. I have 2 boys (2yo & 4mo). My husband left me last November 2011, December 2011 I found out I was pregnant with #2. We tried to make things work but ultimately we just settled our custody agreement and are pending divorce. Before and while pregnant I was watching another little boy and making $800/m in May 2012 I started having complications with my pregnancy due to stress & possible pre-term labor I had to stop "working" and haven't since then. I've been looking like crazy, interviewed with several companies with no luck thus far. I even was rejected by...TOYS R US!!! <-- They had a help wanted to the holiday season sign out front which is why I applied. They said I was over qualified.
So my question, how do you make Christmas work with no money?! I've been living with my mom and I am so very thankful that she fronted my entire legal fees and have signed a homemade IOU stating I will pay her back the legal fees and them some once I find employment. My 2yo now understands that under the Christmas tree is where the presents go. With the books, pictures & malls they all have an abundance of presents overflowing the bottom of the tree I feel like that is what he is going to expect. I feel like such a shitty mom that I can't provide for my children, I also feel guilty that my family will be giving us gifts and that I cannot give back to them. I beat my self up inside because I know that right now I am not able to be the mom I want too. Thank God for coupons because I don't know that I would do.