My new job is having a Christmas dinner tomorrow for the staff, and even having limo service so no has to drive, but I found out last night I can not go. The only person I have in my life to watch my daughter is sick.
I have no other family I can count on, only my mom and she frankly is sick about 80% of the time because she lives such an unhealthy life. She has to come to my house to watch my daughter and gives me a hard time about being back by midnight at the latest because she has to drive home - she lives 20 minutes away. My daughter can not stay over at her house because well frankly her husband and her are hoarders and no one sets foot in their house. My dad is physically not capable of watching my daughter for more and a hour in the day time, and he never stays up past 10 pm ever. My brother has never offered and I have never asked, he seems too busy in his own life as is single dad. And my daughter's dad is a cover band musician so he never takes my daughter on weekends. I have one best friend that could do it if I asked but she is a stay home mom with two kids and is on call for work at the hospital so it is hard to plan out.
Far too often my plans get shafted last minute so I just give up. As nice as it would be to have some time to myself I know it just isn't going to ever happen. This entire year I have gone out with my friends 3 times. I went out to a concert by myself twice, and one was when I didn't need a sitter because she was at her dad's that Monday night. But that is the life of a single mother.
I am trying not to cry about it but I was really looking forward to that night.
Just needed to vent. I know I am not the only single mum that has this issue. :(