My son's father has been the bane of my existance for 5 years of my life. After one year (my son was then 15mths old) he (driven my his crazy mother) sought out access every other weekend with my son and won. ick.
It was a hellish traumatic ride of fighting, abuse, crazy making and manipulation. I fought hard to put an end to it unsuccessfully. Eventually the school called CAS because of things my son was saying.
Fast forward a year, and my son refused to go saying "I don't feel safe there" CAS decided no more visits, supervised only.
That worked exactly 2x. The 3rd visit ex was escorted off CAS property by police, and CAS refused to try anymore.
Thing is, no one heard from ex ever again! That was a year ago. I guess is was (as he often said) "too much hassle" In fact, his ENTIRE paternal family has dropped him like a hot potato. Aunt, grandfather, grandmother. ALL of them.
Enter mom guilt.
I am ecstatic that this abuser is out out out of my life! Even happier his psychotic mother is gone! My son however, is miserable. He cries, why doesn't my dad love me anymore? Why did everyone go away? He went through a phase where he thought it was his fault. He went through a phase where he thought it was my fault.
Right before Christmas he had to be told he wouldn't be going to see his dad at his grandparents like he always had before. He was crushed. He thought he would (I don't know why).
I feel terrible for his hurt, I feel terrible I am happy the ex and his family are gone. I wish he had family, I wish he had a father. I am glad his father is gone. I am glad his family is gone. I'm scared they will change their mind and come back, I feel bad for feeling that.
Am I nuts???