I joined this group about 4 months ago, my husband and I were going to divorce. His parents talked us into staying together and going to counseling. So we did. Things never really got much better, just kind of started back to our busy selfs and went on with life. Now here we are again, and I want so bad to leave. We always fight and we are both unhappy. We are literally together for the kids, we have a 4 year old boy, 2 1/2 year old girl and 6 month girl. I've been a sham for 4 years, just started a very part time job (12 hours a week). I'm so afraid to leave. Where will I live, how will I pay for it, putting the kids in child are since I will need a full time job. On top of it I have no family here, they all live 500+ miles away, it's only his family. I'm so close to all his family I'm afraid I will lose them too. I just don't know what to do, do I stay and keep hoping it will get better, or leave to end the nonsense. I'm afraid ill never find anyone to be with again, i mean who really wants a divorced single mom of 3?! I hate the idea of going from a huge house to a small apartment, but I don't see myself getting the house, that's one thing he will fight for. Anybody with wisdom on this I really need some.