So, here I am in this path of life giving birth to a set of twins due july 2, 2013.
I have a 4 year old who i love and odore. Her father abused me when i was prego that made us separate. Long story short we wore dealing with custody ... I had been single for some time now. I decided to go out and had something like a one night stand... that turned out iinto this pregnacy. The guy is much younger then me and wanted me to have a abortion. now he claims they are not his. and often sends me text messeges about how women are so wrong for opening their legs... and putting guys like him in this situation.
Well I didnt want to have sex with him... and i regret allowing him to win me over... I guess it had really been that long sense I felt like i was actually wanted by someone.. but if i was back there again i would of not.
so i am here dealing with this situation alone. i dont really have a strong support system.
but i work full time, i have my own place and i have one year left to graduate from a 4yr college.that i plan to finish after the babys come.
I just wish i had a real friend that understood me and was willing to help me. my parents are 100000 of milies away. My birth father doesnt care ... and i just wish i had someone to really count on now that i need it the most. just someone to lean on. I have been crying eveyday for that last few months and i know it doesnt solve anythig. I am a very strong person that always looks for the finer things in life and wants to better her self I just dont know what a strugle i am in for.