So, my son asked me to teach him how to tie a tie - over an our ago, and I got SO stressed out about it. My son is 12 and he's him. Good kid - no complaints. It's me. I get so impatient with him sometimes when I am showing him something. He is good at computerized stuff, but anything with coordination, it's going to be a while.
I want to stop smoking weed, for many reasons, but I was so tempted to go light up a joint because I felt myself about to pop. I didn't yell at him too bad but bad enought that I felt horrible. Part of me just wanted to walk away and tell him to figure it out for himself, the other part of me wanted to just do it and not take the time to teach him. But I knew both options were not beneficial, so I sat there, showed him, then walked away to let him figure it out for himself. I walked out to my car, right to light it up, but I didn't. I just went outside and walked back into the house.
I apologized to my son. I started to make excuses but just apologized. I really didn't mean to yell at him and make an experience that should be good a stressful one.
I just want to cry. Sometimes, I think it's too much. My son is good. Even if he wasn't, I still want to be in it. But sometimes, I feel like I need that help. God is with me...I just needed to vent
Oh, he learned to tie the tie :-)