I'm tired and I feel guilty about saying that I'm tired. That one year of marriage has drained me mentally, physically, and financially. When I clear up one thing something else happens. I work to pay bills. I can't make it from payday to payday. I was on my way to pay my rent yesterday and my car broke down. What do I do? Pay the rent or get my car fixed. I need my car to get to work. I finally got back on track with paying my rent on time after dealing with finalizing my divorce.
I want to scream but I don't want my daughter to see me fall apart. I am 53 years old and I am tired of struggling every single day. I can't pack it all in because I know my daughter needs me. The family I did have here stopped talking to me because "they" didn't like my ex!!!!! They turned my son against me. Once upon a time we were close. Or so I thought. Everyone was happy as long as I was single and at home.
I feel lost, alone, tired, frustrated, mad and devastated. Is my life always going to be a struggle?