Okay I'll be honest and say this. When I was in my 20s going without sex wasn't a big deal to me. I went a whole 2 years six months once. No problem. Even when I was single and no son in my earlier 30s I wasn't too pressed for sexual contact. After having my son..............BAM. All I do is think about and desire sex. Weird right!! I mean it's relentless. I feel like a guy. Sex 24/7 completely annoying. It's not like I don't have more important things to consume my time. I work 9-5 Mon-Fri with overtime once in a while. Then all of my time is spent with my son.
I feel dirty sometimes due to the excessive amount of time I'm H***y. Which is all the time. *rolls eyes* I doubt I'll be getting laid within the next 12 months or longer. Mainly due to the fact that my son will be turning one in a few weeks. Friends with benefits and bootie calls are a big NO for me. I'm not up for dating at the moment. Too much going on. How do you cope?
Update: For all the folks suggesting vibrators and toys I gave up on that stuff a long while back. Mainly because I moved back in with my mom and sister. My son and I share a room seperate beds. It's hard for me to self pleasure myself. Adults movies are a big NO. I used to own a few but now a days that stuff gives me a laugh more then excitement. I'll look into something low key. Until then I've been researching online master's degree programs and local college to see if I want to go back to school.
Sometimes I wish I felt free enough to walk into a bar and just pick up a guy, but the truth is I am too cautious and conservative-which leads me to the sad realization that sex is like an impossible dream for me. Although none of my other friends understand this (I think some of you wil): I truly fear I may never have sex again.
Finally tears of happiness.
- kitcal78
on Feb. 13, 2013 at 12:25 AM