I thought I would be a good single parent but I'm wrong!
okay I need to vent an need advice! Okay I have two kids an I'm a single parent, My name is Teranda I'm 21 years old. I have a 3 year old daughter and a 1 year old daughter. I'm having a hard time adjusting, the oldest girl dad lives with his current girlfriend an is not in her life. The youngest girl dad comes an goes like the wind. Of course I let him see his daughter whenever he wants that's included with the other dad which isn't often. But anyway the second dad comes around for sex from me an I give it to him like a dummy, I guess I'm just lost. But I'm not posting this to talk about a man, I posted this because I need advice on my kids. Okay my 3 year old stresses me to the max. Honestly I have never seen a toddler act this way. She can't talk yet, all she does is scream to the top of her lungs when things don't go her way. She does this all the time when I get out at a store or just anywhere. One day she was screaming to the top of her lungs covering her ears in a store an a lady walked by me an said I'm positive she is autistic. She hasn't been diagnosed yet because I have to do more research to find out information. I spank her an yell at her an she laughs. My mother an grandmother suggested I try a little switch because that's what some parents use. That does work but sometimes it leaves scratches an I don't want anybody to think she is being abused. I just don't know what to do. The youngest baby is fine, she is okay just being a toddler but she says more words than the oldest but I try not to compare them. I need help I'm stressed out, I'm living at my mother's houise which doesn't help. I'm trying to move out on my own but it's hard finding something affordable and low income apartments always have long waiting lists. I'm considering going to college this summer to a university that offers daycare an housing for mothers. I'm not sure what to go for maybe nursing but i know that's not very promising because of the waiting list because it is ver competitive but I'm afraid that my 3 year old would make that stressful an the daycare may not want to keep her because they'll think she is disrupting the other kids. Please any advice is apprecaited thanks.