Or at least that's how I'm feeling lately. I've been fighting with myself about posting my situation and I finally have decided to do it and get some advice (this might get long sorry in advance!)
I am a widowed mom of my almost 2 year old son. My husband died in a motorcycle accident on the day of my confirmation Dr's appt. So I've been a single mom from the very beginning. About 9 months ago I started "dating" my longtime friend. It has been a turbulent process to say the least, mainly because he is living with another woman. They have been "together" for 12 years, I have known him for 10 years but we were never the best of friends (I knew he liked me way back when but I had just begun dating my late DH so the timing was all off) well a year after DH passed we began talking and all this grew into much more than friendship.
The issue is that he owns his own business with his family and all his income goes back into the business (his "girlfriend" owns the house and pays everything he doesn't contribute to the household) so he can't move into his own place. I own my own home but he says he doesn't want to move right in here because even though he's not in love with her he still doesn't want to hurt her.
I literally have no idea what to do, he stops here every night for a couple hours before going home and it is harder every time I have to watch him leave. I'm afraid of letting my son get attached to him, but at the same time I'm afraid of letting him go...what would you do in my situation? It all sounds so ridiculous when I type it out, I've always thought I was a smart woman I'm not the type to get mixed up in all this nonsense and it pisses me off!