I already feel like I don't spend enough time with my daughter. It is so hard being a single mother working full time. I feel like she spends all of her time at daycare it it truely breaks my heart that lately when I drop her off and I wave bye bye, she claps. I work a full time 8-5 job and my boss just told me today that I just put in my time and get by and I will never advance or get raises unless I put forth extra effort. I already hardly see her and now I'm going to have 1 less hour with her per day. Will she hate me in the future for leaving her in daycare and being selfish and keeping her when she could have had a better life if she were adopted? I ask myself that all the time. This job truely is pretty easy on me, they are somewhat lenient on me as far as dr appointments and sick time(as long as I use my personal/vacation days) I just feel terrible for my poor baby who I'm pretty sure would rather be at daycare now than with me because she knows them better than she knows me. And she probably calls them mama. Now I'm at work and on the verge of tears.. actually some occasionally escape my eyes and I wipe them quickly as to not be seen because after my boss got on to me, I'm scared to even go to the restroom to cry.
Thanks for listening.