I need some advice, I think I need motivation or just a big reality check. So here's the deal. I'm a single mom of 3 boys. I separated from my husband a year ago. Long story short, he was the most caring husband ever and then the next day he became a complete stranger who took off with his best friends ex-girlfriend, gave up on the Army and forgot all about his "world" his boys. I haven't heard from him since. I was for 7 yrs a housewife, I've never really worked and surely didn't know how to provide for anybody. After he left I had no choice but to move in with my parents. I got a job (minimum wage) and that's it. I haven't done anything or at least that's how it feels. I'm stuck. I year later nothing has gone according to plan or even improved. I have held this job but it's really not getting me anywhere. I'm tired of this, I need something to happen, how do I make something happen??
So here are things that I've contemplated:
School. I have a school in mind but the tuition isn't completely covered by loans and grants and I would have to pay out of pocket. Problem: I don't have that extra money & theirs nobody to help me with that. Reasons I want that school vs another one because it's the only accelerated Paralegal program in CA that is ABA approved. In one year I'll be done and can start a good career.
Joining the National Guard (if I meet qualifications). I know most ins & outs; like I said before estrange husband is/was Army, so I know what I would be getting into. I would join mostly for the tuition assistance and I could be a paralegal in the military as well as the civilian side. Problem: leaving my boys, I've never left them ever!
Finally, Give up? I have no clue anymore. I HAVE tried endlessly to look for new, better paying job. I have signed up with agencies, ask friends and nothing. Support is mostly found in 3 friends, sometimes. My parents have lost any and all hope in me so telling them I want to do this or that will just get me eye rolls and I don't blame them. Here I am 26 years old and haven't accomplished anything but a failed marriage and a never ending pity party.
I need help ladies, give it to me straight. sorry its so long btw.