I'm very new to this forum; I just joined this website. So you are witnessing my first post, and I feel like it is an appropriate first post. Anyway, to get straight to the point here.... It is Tuesday and my kids went out of town with their grandmother Saturday. I talked to my kids yesterday, because I miss them, naturally. I stay fairly busy between college among endless other responsibilities which fails to leave room for much of a social life. Usually, I am the type of person who feels comfortable enough with themself that I enjoy my time and solitude. However, the past day or two (probably occured to my today) I have been feeling rather lonely and isolated even though I am out and about normally. I suppose I feel like my routine is a tad off, because I am used to my schedule evolving around my two children. It could be a multitude of things... I am not quite sure. Since they've been absent for the past three days I never realized how lonely my life really is. I suddenly feel down in the dumps, and depressed all of the sudden. It is like even though I have all this stuff to do I do not know what to do with myself. It is a hit in the face when you realize in a moment of silence and isolation how alone you really are. However, eventually, I am not alone as much as I think since I have this place to go to. I am always full of energy and on the go constantly... I stay relatively proactive, but it seems the past two days I am drained. Wouldn't you think I would be drained if I still had my kids and wouldn't have as much time to rest? Now I have more time to study and tend to my homework, but it is like I can't concentrate like I normally can and my mind is mentally weary. What is going on here? When I have my kids this isn't normal for me. If you need more information to give any advice please feel free to ask. Also, I've asked aquantiences to hang out but it is like they blow me off. If they only knew.... I am a fun person to be around. There isn't anything wrong with me. Like I said, I just don't get it. Thanks for any feedback!!
Lonely & Isolated,
on Mar. 19, 2013 at 5:48 PM