I had my son on the 19th of march. I have a restraining order against his father and before me and him split ways I told him I cheated on him and his son wasn't really his(which was a lie its 100% his) but I had a good reason for it. Shortly after we found out I was pregnant he developed schizophrenia and became insane and severely controlling and abusive. I stayed with him a few months after it started trying to help and fix him but he refused help. He'd say there was no help then id find him help and he'd make up excuses not to go he wouldn't try to fix himself and he gambled away all our money and complained he was sick but wouldn't do anything about it. I finally realized I couldn't have my son around him and have him see his father beat me repeatedly and beat him up as well. Anyways I've been having dreams lately of his father trying hard to see him and crying holding him and he's a changed man in the dreams. I know he hasn't changed he's still the same man but still these dreams are making me so guilty feeling. Am I a bad erson for keeping him away from his son and telling him he isn't the father so hell stay away?
on Apr. 1, 2013 at 1:07 PM