Anyways.... I'm in school & have 2 years left. I work as a nanny and I'm not completely sure how I'll make it financially on my own but I've managed to pay the last 2 months rent on my own in full plus my bills. The "bf" still hasn't paid me back & I'm doubtif he will, POS.
I'm trying to stay civil so there won't be fights infront of my son. To the "bf" we're together & working on stuff & he loves me so much, yada yada yada. If I have sex with him, it's pretty much to not have a fight or to fix that urge.
But I want a baby!!! I keep having dreams that I'm preg with a little girl. In my dream I still move out & raise her on my own & life is peachy. I have names picked out. I know it is completely nuts! I'm not actually trying for one or calculating this or that. But u do really want one. My son is 7 & so big. He wants a baby too & gets sad if I say he maybe an only child. I'm almost 30 & really thought my life would be different & I'd have a few kids & would be done by like 30. But I'm not.
I want a baby!!!! Nuts right?!