So this whole pregnancy has been unenjoyable and a complicated one. I am 23 and now 6 months pregnant with my first child. The father and I were engaged about a month before i found out i was pregnant. He was excited at first and then I started to get sick in my first trimester. He left one night to go party and never returned. he told me I had become" boring". After weeks of drinking, fooling around, and partying, he decided he was sorry and wanted to work on things agian. Thing is, I've never trusted him since. He's lied SOOO much and with everything I had become physically and mentally exhausted. We' ve tried on and off ever since and it all ends the same. Each time he promises it wont happen again and yet he still ends up in bars. He's only been to one dr.s appointment and missed the gender reveal because he was hung over. I'm so torn because he does show that he wants to be big part of our little girls life and my llife, and yet he shows he wants his drinking and bars too. I want to believe that each time is the last time but he proves me wrong. I want my little girl to have a chance at having her parents together that's the only reason i try everytime but am I making a mistake by forgiving him and trying to work over and over again?