My daughter is 8 months old this week and I have had intrusive thoughts before she was even born. Before she was even conceived!
The thoughts used to be related to my parents and the stress I incurred with them. Example: cleaning the house a couple hours each week, attending school for my Associates (even though I have my Bachelor's), and dating an abusive and selfish man.
Now, the thoughts revolve around my daughter. I see a LPC and a Psychiatrist twice a month and am on a consistent and helpful medicine. I take this medicine once at night and it not only helps with sleep, but managing stress and OCD like behaviors. (Which are constantly needing to clean and keep things organized-not repetitions just daily obsessions).
My therapist has suggested reseraching OCD-intrusive thoughts on the web and possibly finding a "joke" to myself when I have the thought. I came up with "shes not a baked potato," when I think horrible things such as putting her in the microwave or the oven.
I am a single mother and live about 5 miles from my parents and 15 miles from great family and friends. I have a great support network and can rely on more people than I need!
I just want to know....AM I CRAZY??? DOES ANYONE ELSE HAVE THESE THOUGHTS? They are soo terrifying and destructive, I feel horrible. I feel better with the medication, but when I ask friends or family if they have experienced these thoughts-all I get is strange looks and "no way!" .....just need to know I'm not the only one suffering with this decreptive disease.