How many of us are simply tired of being single and unattached? I am. I miss companionship. I miss sex. I miss being a part of a man's life. My friends aren't always available to do things with and sometimes I find myself just sitting at home watching tv. I gave up a lot of my life because of the man I was married to. Money problems were up and down throughout my entire marriage. There was hardly any money to have a decent life. But, if I wanted to do something with my then husband he was there to share a life with me. Up until he became active duty everything changed. I went from having someone in my life to being alone raising a daughter. I know of several people that are lucky enough to find someone just a few months after they have separated from their spouses. These aren't rebounds. These are bonafide relationships. Why hasn't this happened to me? Instead I'm still alone. Sometimes it's hard not to tear up because I feel frustrated about my circumstance. I know that there is someone out there for me, but fate is taking it's sweet time. Besides going out on a dating site and 'shopping' around for a date (which I will never do) I can't think of any other way to meet someone. My friends happen to have known someone in their past that they knew was single and they simply hooked up. I know of no one single in my past I would even consider looking up. I'm a good looking woman, smart, outgoing and I have all kinds of interests from working out to watching football, to being a great cook, to going to the golfing range, to knowing about world events.
Perhaps I'm just melancholy for someone to actually see me for what I truly am - a great catch.
It's hard not to tear up knowing that just about everyeone else I know has found happiness once again while I sit and wonder what I'm going to make for dinner tonight and if I'm actually going to meet Mr. Right for once in my life.