Hello my name is Anne I have been a single mom for 7 years my so is 9. I am sosososososososososososososososososososososososos depressed :-( about his father abanding us I am in consoling I take antidepressants I have over 2 years clean from crack. I still go to NA like 3 or 4 times a week. So the reason I am depressed is bc when I meet hi bioligilcal father. I knew him 3 months and were high on coke and deciesed it would be a good idea to have a baby. So we got an apartment in the projects.....I was clean when I was prego..... I started getting high again after a month after he was born. ****Important note**** we both really wanted a girl. We were going to name the baby Victoria but it was a bot so we named him Vincent its just a quwidince both V names he wanted Lucifer and Damian I wanted Noah and Elisha.... I remember him coming home from work saying "what about Vincent after Vincent van Go" he had his share o problems.... We were nothing drug addicts... He was always talking me in to 3sums.... We broke up got back together...when my son was 10 months old we broke up I moved back home and then we got another apt together we couldn't pay are rent and my parents got sick of paying it me and the baby moved back to my parents. He moved to his parents in NC came back 2. Times and I visted once. I did not talk to him since 2008. About a year ago I found his mom, step mom, hafe sister on Facebook his sis told me he had another kid. She was pregnate with with my sons cousin. That I couldn't even tell him about. On Thursday my BFF texted me his picture!!! I thought he was at her house she got it from face book. He does have a daughter HE FUCKING NAME. HER VICTORIA!!! The first 2 days I was fine and on sat night I broke down. My life has been so fucked up I haven't been able to have more kids. My son want a brother so bad. I don't care if I am 90 years old I am adopting a girl. Basically I have been obbseing about this asswhole for 7 years but for the first 5 I was in and out of rehabs. And I had a super crazy gf. I realized that I was gay after me and his biological father broke up and would have been miserable. I just wish he could have been a weekend dad :-( to make things even more compacted my parents still have legal custody of my son before he was on Facebook I had no idea where he was. I really want to file custody but my parents don't want him to have contact with him and there afaird. That he will get to see him. I hope someone reads this I CAN NOT GET OVER IT!!!!!!!!!!!
on May. 13, 2013 at 7:39 PM