This is about to get real confusing! Need help and advice!!!
Ok so I was a wild child, finished high school at age 16. Started college, had a job, and a boyfriend. I did whatever I wanted, not because my parents let me but because they had no say over me anymore! So I bullied my mom into letting me marry this guy when I was 17. He was in the military and had a great job and I might add my husband is white (it will matter, you will see). So she agreed, behind my dads back I might add. Well I cheated.....like the first night we were married. (awful huh?!) Anywho....I got prego a monthafter, withmy "boyfriend" (who is black....) withmy daughter. I was living with him, he turned out to be the biggest...ugh well we wont go there, lets just say he has not been around! Ever!! So here I am prego witha baby, their dad is being stupid so I decided it would be better for me and my daughter to get back with my husband. Well he tookme back withone condition, he didn't want my daughter. Here I am 17, a month from being 18. 2 months from having my daughter. Everyone telling me I couldn't support her, but if I gave her to my parents (who has wanted children so badly but I was the one and only) my husband would pay "child support" for her and she would be taken care of. Well ok, I agreed. Then I had her.....let my parents take her then BAMit hit, I WANT MY DAUGHTER! So I told him I wanted her and after some arguments, I had her back. Well he bugged me (don't ask, I never really liked him and felt like I had to stay with him for the money and my kids life) and I choose to move home 6 hours away from him. Well he is in the military likeIsaid so he has to pay spousal support and child support each month and I was able to make ends meet. So yea everything is going ok, then my dumb butt decided I want to see babydaddy...one thing leds to another and bam pregoagain. Well he is still acting the same way, and my mom tells me the smart thing to do is get back with my husband. Ok well, thats what I did (AGAIN) and had my son 3 months after my 19th birthday. Yea well he bugs me again. Told him I am done for good. Well I met this really great guy, know him for going on a year. Well I moved out and my parents told me if would be smart to leave my kids there untilI could get on my feet. So I did, when then when I wanted to take my kids withme, my mom would come up with an excuse as to why not. Well I started to see my kids more and more and my mom got more and more upset! I was the one who bought clothes for them, I was the one who bought diapers for them. I took them to parks, to church, to dr appts! I didn't live in the house but was very much apart of my childrenslives. Well my mom starts sleeping with my husband (no joke! who does that) takes my kids 6 hours away and through 3 different states to my husbands (he is the legal father fyiand baby daddy has had no rights from day 1) to live withhim. Well I tell them both I want my kids back, I was told no. Its been 15 as of today I have not been able to even get info about my kids. I am so broke I can't afford a lawyer. I don't understand how someone can take someone elses children, yes you may be the legal father, but for god's sake their mixed babies! Its clear as day their not yours!!!!!!!!! If I took him to court could I win custody? Yes in a way I wasn't there but that was because everyone made me feel like I could take care of them. Then wouldn't let me try! I want to go for full custody, just because I can't drive 6 hours every week to exchange the kids. Thats over 300 miles. I just can't afford that. I have been a full time student, taking the summer off. I have no job. My family has offered to pay for a custody battle, I just don't know how I will fair. Any advice or help?
This last picture was taken by me when I took them to the park, two days before she took them.
There is no custody arraignment, honestly never thought he would want to take kids that aren't his! So I can't say their kidnapped. I don't know what to do. I want my kids, to belong with me and deseve a great mother. I just want them back.