It's been 2 years since my ex-husband and I split and almost 1 year since our divorce has been finalized. My ex-husband my sons father walked out on us, it was so random and just completely blew me away. After everything was said and done, I felt like the family that I've always wanted was yanked away from me with everyone laughing at me. I felt as if I was being made a fool of. I started going back to school in August of 2011 and will soon be graduating but it has been very difficult without anyone there for me, without any support whatsoever. I am a full time single mom, going to school full time, working 2 part time jobs, and an ex-husband who doesn't help with his own child most of the time. I don't have any family, it's just my son and I and it completely breaks my heart that it's this way for the both of us; of course my son on the other hand still has his fathers side of the family whom he gets to see but it's difficult on me. I feel so abandoned most of the time, I feel lonely, I feel like I've never meant anything to anyone my whole life and it continues. I know my son adores me but I feel like he's supposed to feel like that for his mother which of course I'm sure he's supposed to. Is there anyone else who deals with this? Or am I just feeling like I'm the only one? Being alone, with no support, no family, I do have friends but they're aren't there all the time. How do you do it? I always push hard, I'm a strong person in general but there are times when I just feel so helpless and just want to scream. I get so overwhelmed and wonder why it is that people run away from me.
Momma to one handsome lil boy!