Single moms that didn't gave their baby to adoption I NEED YOUR HELP!
Hey single moms! :) I know some of you have seen my other posts and know what I'm going through.
So I am in between of puting my baby to adoption and wanting to keep this baby. Baby daddy wants to put this baby to adoption because he won't be around and he's leaving the country for 5 or more years for a job. Plus he doesn't want this kid. And I sometimes think it's the best choice since I'll be alone and I know it won't be easy and all me and this baby daddy been doing is arguing and I think I can't give this baby the life it needs. And all my baby daddy do is thinks about himself and I even told him. He doesn't want to be a father he's afraid of his parents and what people will say and all the drama and family drama. But he gets mad because I also want to keep this baby and for once I want to be proud of myself for doing something right. I want to prove him wrong because when i tell him I'll be a single mother he brings up all these negative things on me. And i know it kills him to think that some day a guy might come in my life and accept me and this child and he's mad that this guy will be with his kid. My mom doesn't know I'm pregnant and doesn't know I been thinking of adoption although I'm not sure yet. I am far I'm 27 wks and I have always been a skinny tiny girl so I'm finally starting to show and I know I have to tell her soon is just that I'm afraid how my family will react. So far one of my cousin told me that if I give my baby to adoption she won't talk to me again. Because this baby is a blessing and I never know that if in the future i can have kids again since I have endometiosis and ovarian cyst problems. And I do kinda agree with her. I sometimes feel if I give my baby to adoption is like I'm off the hook problem solve. And that it makes me weak and baby daddy will be happy that I agreed with him. I know I'm young i'm 20 yrs old and I know being a single mom will be hard but I don't know if I can give this baby for open adoption. I love kids and I'm afraid that once I hold this baby in my arms for the first time I won't want to let him/her go.
Why didn't you gave your baby to adoption? And are you happy you didn't? How are things now? How did your family take all this?